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Culture June 3, 2020

Carrie Underwood reflects on her miscarriages, explains son's name

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In the tearful second episode of the faith-based mini-documentary "Mike and Carrie: God & Country," Carrie Underwood and husband Mike Fisher discuss the multiple painful miscarriages the singer suffered after the birth of their son Isaiah.

Their now 5-year-old boy was born half a decade into their marriage, and they knew immediately they wanted him to have a sibling.

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"I'm a planner," Underwood said with a laugh. "I like to know what's happening all the time."

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He is five today. Where did these last five years go? It's so bittersweet watching your children grow up. You want them to stay little and chubby and cuddly forever but it's also so much fun seeing them turn into little people! Isaiah, you are funny and smart and such a caring little boy! You already have so much love for God and for all those around you. The day I became your mother was the day my life changed forever. You are five today but you will always be my baby boy...no matter how old you get. Thank you for being you. ❤️

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Though Underwood got pregnant fairly quickly, "months in" she suffered a miscarriage.

"It sounds wrong when you say it," Underwood confessed, "but it's one of those bad things that happens to other people. You know what I mean? It's like so many things in the world, it's not something that you ever envision yourself having to deal with."

PHOTO: Carrie Underwood is seen at the American Music Awards, Nov. 24, 2019.
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Carrie Underwood is seen at the American Music Awards, Nov. 24, 2019.

But Fisher, a former professional hockey player, was convinced he and the country superstar would have another son.

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"Mike came to me one day and said, 'We're gonna have another baby, and it's gonna be a boy, and his name's gonna be Jacob,'" Underwood recalled. "And I was like, 'OK, and you know this because...?'"

"I was just kind of wrestling and probably the most honest I've been with God ever in my life," Fisher explained. "And I heard not audibly, but I just... sensed that God told me we're gonna have a son and his name's Jacob."

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And the most memorable moment of all in 2019…becoming a family of four was the best way to start off the new year as we welcomed our precious Jacob! 💙 #MemorableMoments

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"Not much longer [afterward], we were pregnant and we lose another baby," Fisher continued.

Soon after, a "bawling" Underwood crawled into bed with her sleeping son and had her own heart-to-heart with God.

"I just had an honest conversation with God, and I told him how I felt," she revealed. "I was hurt, I was a little angry. Of course, you feel guilty for being mad at your creator."

"And I told him I needed something," she went on. "We needed to have a baby -- or not ever. Because I couldn't keep going down that road anymore."

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When Underwood saw her doctor the following Monday, she got some unexpected news: She'd been wrong about her latest pregnancy, it was viable.

"And we went in later on that day and had an ultrasound. And it's like, 'It's all OK. Everything's OK,'" she says. "So we were like, 'Jacob. This is Jacob.'"

Jacob's parents soon learned the significance of his name.

"The story of Jacob," Fisher explained, "[is that] he wrestled with God through the night, and he wouldn't let him go until he got his blessing. And we weren't demanding that he give us this blessing. We were just being honest with him."

Jacob Fisher celebrated his first birthday in January.

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Happy birthday, Jacob! How are you already 1 year old? You are smiley, crazy, smart, soooo fast and into everything! And, apparently, you love cake! I can't wait to see your personality continue to shine! I have a good feeling you're going to keep us all on our toes for years to come! I thank God for you each and every day. You are truly our miracle baby!!! Mommy loves you! Swipe to see how cute the cake was before Jake got ahold of it! 😂

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